Selaat arkistoa kohteelle love.

Things I like…

19.12.2016 Yleinen

I really like when I’m in shower and water on my skin just looks so pretty.

There is something really pretty about sitting in shower and just letting water flow.

Something about being sad is beautiful. You are weak and strong at the same time.

I really like to love. I like to be gay. I like to kiss girls.

I kinda love my body in this picture!!

I like to touch hearts and bodies.

I like my body right now. I really like my legs and hands and belly.

I like scars and marks on our bodies. Being perfect is ugly in my opinion.

Sanaton

5.12.2016 Yleinen

meNyt ku katon näitä kuvia jälkeenpäin en ymmärrä miksi vihasin itteäni niin järkyttävän palion. Olinhan mä ihan söpö. Aloittelin ekan kuvan aikoihin meikkaamaan enkä ollu hyvä siinä heti, mutta kuka on?

Mä en ollu yhtään hassumpi. Mä pidin itteäni tosi lihavana, mutta olin suunnilleen samankokoinen kuin nyt ja oon aivan normaalipainoinen.

Itteään ei sais vihata. Siitä tavasta ei pääse helpolla eroon. Sen huomaa vielä vuosien päästäkin, jos itteään on vihannu.

Mutta siitäkin tavasta voi päästä eroon. Se on vaan tosi vaikeaa muttei mahdotonta.

Aina kun kattelen näitä kuvia niin tulee ikävä mun pitkiä hiuksia. Yhyy. Mut toisaalta en tiiä haluaisinko mä niitä kuitenkaan takasi.

me3me2Älkää olko niin julmia itellenne, jooko? ;_;

Mikä saa meijjät vihaamaan itteämme? Se, että annetaan uskoa että pittää olla tietynlainen jotta kelpaa. Se on todella väärin. Me kaikki kelvataan jollekkin. Lopettakaa sellaset säälittävät puheet ja antakaa kaikkien elää!!

Olkaa omia ittejänne ihan rauhassa muista välittämättä!! <3

Ootte ihania just semmosina ku ootte!!

             me6

            Rakkautta kaikille!!

            Alex

Something small for everyone

5.12.2016 Yleinen

cutecat2

cutiecat

cutecat4ever

 

 

Cats are so adorable.

I hope this makes someone smile.

Hope you all are okay and happy. <3 (it’s okay to not be happy too and you can’t always be okay).

Love from Alex.

 

I saw a dream…

5.12.2016 Yleinen

I saw a dream last night. I saw something beautiful in it. It was simple, little weird but I loved it.

I saw love in it. Two people who hug each other. I saw me and my girlfriend. I saw loving looks and gentle touching. Something so innocent and cute. Happy faces.

My girlfriend is beautiful and love is too. I write about this because I miss her. I don’t know when we see next time and it makes me feel hopeless sometimes. We have a long distance relationship and we live over 8 hours away from each other. I can live with it but it’s hard sometimes.

The weird was that we were in a store while we hugged and we listened my spofity – music list. We were happy and calm. We were really relaxed with each other. I hope I can be like that someday with her. We have dated almost two months now so we aren’t 100% ourselves I guess. With time we will be more ourselves and relaxed.

I want to write about something else but she is always in my mind. And well this is my way to show that I miss her a lot. I just want to be close to her and hold her. I’m fucking gay sorry not sorry. *evil laugther*

Never gonna give you up.

See you soon my precious Angel.

Love from Alex <3

Sadness…

4.12.2016 Yleinen

Sadness can destroy but it makes you stronger and stronger every time. You feel like it kills you even though you survive every time. You are so strong! You have survived every time you thought you couldn’t. I am proud of everyone who has been struggling but survived. <3

Give life a chance. I promise you won’t be dissapointed. I gave life a chance and I can breathe better than in years. My anxiety isn’t horrible anymore and I hardly get anxious. I am more confident and braver than ever. I can go outside without stress and makeup. That is a big thing for me. I don’t hate myself anymore because I learned to like myself and live with myself. I try my best to be kind to myself.

I am not the happiest but I feel happiness every day. I survive everyday even though it’s not always easy. I’m still depressed but depression doesen’t control my life. I am fighter just like you.

We should do things that makes us happy. Writing makes me happy and I write often. Showing my feelings makes me happy. So I show them. Eating chocolate makes me happy so I eat it. I take silly selfies because it’s fun and it makes me happy. It doesen’t have to be a big thing. The important things is that it makes you happy. If you don’t feel happiness you can always try to watch funny videos or cute animal videos to cheer you up. Maybe you don’t feel like doing it but it could help. You don’t lose anything if you try to cheer you up.

Let’s win sadness together. Let’s fight. We can do it together. I believe in you. Love wins. We win. We survive with love.

Some day you can feel better again. You will smile like crazy. You will be happy that you continued living. This is for everyone who is struggling now.

Love from Alex <3

Runot on rakkaus

4.12.2016 Yleinen

Sun huulesi,

kuin syksyn kirkkaanpunainen lehti,

sun silmäsi,

kuin taivaan kirkkaimaat tähdet,

sun kosketuksesi,

lämmin kuin kesäinen tuulenvire,

sun äänesi,

lohduttava kuin heräävä luonto.

 

Yks mun parhaimmista runoista tähän mennessä! Voisin silloin tällöin laitella runoja tänne.

Inspiraationa käytin tyttöystävää tietty.

Miss you cutie.

<3

Sending love <3

4.12.2016 Yleinen

I want to share love for everyone so much! <3

I just suddenly got this feeling to watch pictures of my girlfriend and I got goosebumps and I felt love. I suddenly wanted to see her, love her, hear her laugh and see her eyes. Touch her warm hands. Kiss her. Okay I try not to be too gay now. SHE IS JUST THE CUTEST!! My little precious cutie!!! <3

We all deserve love and it doesen’t have to be romantic love. You can love in many ways and many things . You can love your parent(s), your sister, brother, friend, best friend, dogs, cats, everything.

I hope everyone is okay. <3 If not then that is fine too. You feel what you feel. Be okay soon! <3

Now I show my face again because I can!!

I hope you enjoy!!

Love from Alex.

myface

 

17.11.2016 Yleinen

Ne ihmiset, jotka hyväksyy mut tämmösenä ku oon….shit ne on niin ihania.

Mä en oo tottunu siihen, että mut hyväksytään. Mä haluan olla oma itteni ja tulla hyväksytyksi tämmösenä.

Oon niin kiitolline niistä.

Ois niin paljo kaikkea tähän liittyen mitä haluaisin jakaa, mut en osaa sanoa tän enempää.

Writing

17.11.2016 Yleinen

Sometimes I feel like writing is the only thing I’m good at.

To me it’s the best way to express myself and show who I am.

I write about important things or just tell something like ”I am bored.”

Sometimes I write really beautiful poems and wanna show them to everyone.

I write how I really feel.

I write to tell how much I love someone or about things I love.

I love writing. It’s best.

 I like to share everything. I want to share everything, because I know I’m not alone.

I want to share everything to show people that they aren’t alone with thoughs.

I want to help.

When I wake up….

9.11.2016 Yleinen

 

When I wake up at night… I look that are you next to me. You aren’t.
I don’t remember that you are at home.
I really want to see you when I wake up.
I want to be close to you.
I want to feel your warm body next to me.
I want to hear you sleeping and just smile to you. I want to fall asleep next to you.
I miss you already and you left only four days ago. I didn’t miss you this much last time.
At first I wasn’t sure about loving you because well love is a strong word.
But now I am getting more sure about that.
I love you.